I wish... I wish... I wish for...

If I have Aladdin's magical lamp, probably I'll ask genie to turn back the clock and I will reject to marry that man this time round!

Why? Why not ask genie to change your man into a better person instead?

Huh! Probably even genie will sigh and shake his head... impossiblility...
朽木不可雕 !
(impossible to make a good carve from a rotten bad log)

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Ok... that was just my words of impulse... luckily I used the words "probably". Though he's a bad log, still he float...
But that man's brain circuit is definately haywire!!!

That man thinks taking care of kids and housechores are woman's responsibility and he is very good enough to help around and yet Im not appreciating but keep complaining. I am not calculating and in fact whatever I do for my my girls, is out of my most will. But he forget, Im working too. If I can, I wish I could but many of time, I have a mind but incapably...

I request that man understanding, hoping he can spend more time helping out... and his reply...
"this is your problems already... you must find you own solution then..."

I try not to bother my mum to babysit my girls but whenever it happen that both of us have a schedule...
"put them with your mum then..."
"but mum is tire too... she has another two kids to take care..."
"your mums' two are grown-up... they shdnt need much attention... furthermore is not everytime..."

He never understand the attention require for all ages children and considerate for my mum's age can be quite tiring to take care children. No doubt is not everytime, but he has the habit. I told him, I really dont like the ideal and I have a stronger sense that we shd take care of our own children but not taking advantage of my mother's convienience... and his reply...
"the problem lie on you then... you settle your own problem..."

Sometime it can be quite stressful for me to be alone with the girls. They can get over board and out of hand. I told that man my problem and his reply...
"Who ask you to seng pai?!! Solve your own problem now..."

And what make me "blasted" last night was, for the pass 3 night, he was having some competition, so I have been handling the girls myself... from fetching them home, having dinner till wash-up and tuck in them.

For the first night, I took it as a challenge. Everything went ok. I even did some chores and whipped up a supper waiting for him. Not angry even knowing he was still chating with fren at carpark. When he came back, we manage to chat a bit and he commented "See! Man likes woman to be sweet... today you are very nice."
(In my heart was thinking, his head got problem. He still has the audacity to expect his wife to be sweet when day she had worked 8.5hrs w/o break and night continue at home and he's not helping but having self time!)

The 2nd night was a bit tire for me. Luckily mum came by. Having a person to talk somehow vented a bit. But I really have no mood to appear sweet infront of that man.

Then the 3rd night... Im so demoralise when fetching the girls, he told me he'll go JB with fren to pump oil after the competition! And he came back 2.30am!