Confliction

Finally I am back to work again!
Was on child care leave pass 2 days to take care the two sick-but-still-hyper-active girls. In fact they were like monster monkey for the pass 2 days! I cannot believed myself that I was yelling & nagging all day and had spanked them numerous time but in dismay, gave up, just let them run wild... -_-

I just hope for the day will be over soonest and I can go back to work. My heart was saying, luckily I am not a SAHM, need to face them 24hrs everyday...

But now, after lunch, at 2pm. I starts to miss my girls.

Most probably is the taking care of the girls while meeting my own high expectation on the house's cleanliness had hit my threshold. I think I am fine if just solely either taking care of the children or doing the house chore. Doing both is really a mental stress, especially if the children do not listen & cooperate but creating mess & chaotic... 炮血管!!

Luckily my mum's consolation. They were sick. So quite tempermental. They got carried away as I am not working, can accompany them and they dont need to attend school. so they 得意忘行, too happy till misbehave.

Take a deep breathe...

Reminder for myself...
Relax, take it easy. Be patience. Dont be grouchy. Focus on one at a time. Piority is quality time with the children. Deep breathe in... SMILE