-est Parent

My usual nite of parental bonding moment with my girls prior to their sleep. Lying together on their bed, I sang them a lullaby.. It have been a while I did not sing to them.. they enjoyed the humming as much as they used to since young... then my little girl, Abella told me..

"Mommy you are the goo-dest.." shaking her petite thumb king up.
me: "huh? googles?"
abe: "No, is Good! Goodest!"
me broke into smile... " Are u saying Best?"
abe: "Yes! Bestest Mommy!"

kekeke... she is weak in her grammer but the thought of I am the No. 1 in her heart is so sweet & touching... she just insisted to add the -est in every words bestest describe me... :)

Sweet girl... btw they didnt forget their daddy too, the daddy has an -est too...

"daddy is the strongest..."

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
to our strongest man...

(he is the only man in the family too.. :p)

You ask for it

On Monday the girls were on "medical leave".

I knew they had occasion cough for quite a while but last Sunday night they had difficulties sleeping due to stuffy nose.

We decided to bring them to the doctor and Im glad we did.

The two sick girls were still playing & jumping as usual though Clarabelle appeared more petulance.

But to my dismay, Abella was diagnosed with mild bronchitis but the more petulance Clara just normal cold cough. Luckily nebulizer not required unless she complaint further breathing difficulties.

Not to worries, my two girls are getting well now.. :)

But from this incident, I reminded myself never treat their symptom lightly, no matter how small it is.

Oh.. actually I wanted to share a funny incident...keke... my bone felt tickle, whenever I related this.. kekeke...

So, on Monday night after their medicine, I urged the girls for an early rest as tomorrow they are going back school. But then my two selective "diligent" girls wanted to do some phonics assessment first. Well, we shouldnt deprive them from learning so I agreeded to do some reading on the bed.

Then when I was asking them to tell me words end with the letter "n"... Clara behaved ignorance and kept giving me the wrong word. I knew she was tired but it was her that initiated to do the assessment and I really discourage to do thing half way.

Her continue ignorance get on my nerves and I raised my voice.

She began to cry. I reminded her unreasonable crying doesnt help but make me more angry.
She continued to cry. I walked out the room.

Abella followed me to another room. I explained to her why I am angry.
She noded her head..

A while later, there was silent from Clara. When I opened her door, she had buried her face in her pillow but looked up when heard us. (Her face was pityful. Haha)

I told her I came back because she had stopped crying. I am willing to accept her apology.
But Clara just kept mum.

Still mum even I had intrigued her. I was mad when she kept her mouth so tight and seem grinding her teeth.

"What is that in your mouth?!"
"Open your mouth!"
"Open your mouth now!!"

She sense I am seroius, no choice but opened her mouth.
The next moment we experienced little merlion.
Her mouth was filled with saliva and phlegm!
And all gushed out like merlion pour!
(She must have cry till cough and induced the phlegm and probably the reason she stopped crying too)

I broke into smile. My poor little innocent broke into guilty smile too.
We were all soaked in our apology gaze and forgotten to save the newly changed bedsheet.
But changing bedsheet and mess created by them is never such light-hearted as that night.

After all the cleaning, I tugged the girls to bed snuggly.
Sweet dream, my dears... mommy love you...

Button

Finally I got one of my procastinating item done last night.

Had the girl's long "worn-out" school uniform "fixed up". Torn pocket & one missing button. I didnt differentiate their uniform so no ideal who is the rowdy one though Clara is suspicion..

While I was replacing the missing button, cant find a round button to match, so I simply got a flower button instead.

Then came Clara, curious to know what I was doing but fascinated immediately when saw I sew a flower button on the uniform.

"Mommy, is this for me? Are you giving me this uniform?"
Before I can answer her, there came Abella insisted that was her uniform and the two insisted it was hers.

me:" Now, girls, the iron is hot, please stay away from the iron board. And go aside to settle among u who's uniform is this."

(eavesdrop their conversation..)
Abe:" Clarabelle, this is mine uniform, not yours... u cannot tell lie.."
Clara:"No.. this is mine.. I didnt tell lie.."
wtpg:" No it's mine!"
Abe:" Clarabelle can u let me hv the uniform please..."
Clara:"No.. it's mine.."
Abe:"Huh! you naughty girl! I dont like u! you always dont let me have it!"

Me interrupt: "Girls.. why not take turn?"

... ... ... ...

No respond. probably they had been distracted by other matter. *shrub shoulder*

Thought the matter will just end up no definite?

In the end, Clarabelle came up to me sheepishly requesting :" Mommy, can u put the flower button uniform in my bag? Can u give me the flower button uniform? I love the flower button very much..."

Well.. I cant promised her. I had the sets of uniform mixed up and randomly packed into their individual school bag. Wish her good luck! :p

Kungfu Panda

Thought Kungfu Panda will be a lame show but so many people had been advocating.

Since it was an animation and meant for kids, we brought the girls to the movie last weekend.

We didnt expect it had so much entertaining effect. I really laugh out loud!! The girls too. Especially Clarabelle, that kind of hahaha hohoho laugh! Make me smile too.

Was indeed a good laugh for me but still cant get rid of my lethargy. Was so tire lately . Cant bring myself to do anything once home. Even my favourite leisure, surfing net.

Every night after work, I was like pulling myself to settle the girls. Finally when they dose off when I can have my own soul time, the moment I on my pc, the next moment my Zzz syndrome relapse. No choice but to pull myself to off the pc and drag my dead body up on bed.

That how I usually end my day and the cycle keep going and had created a bad chain cycle.
Piled-up clean & dirty laundry, dusty messy smelly rooms, snowdustball ........ *sigh*

I really wonder how other mothers do it?! Age really caught me up!
Others always compliment I dont look like my age but they never know... how I hope my engine also.... *sign*

How can I gain more energy???! Cant anyone tell me huh?

Does learning kungfu help? Even a clumsy overweight animal can become so agile.. I shdnt be that bad huh?

kekeke...

Happy Mother's Day ( belated again... :p )

I have slacken in my post... I know... Dont worry, aint Im back again? :p

As much as I want to do justice to my blog, I must do some for my girls' this year mother's day craft.
I find it rather heartwarming though can guess 99% of the craft was done by their teacher again haha... but the remaining 1% was core important...

me: " so girls.. which part of the craft was done by you? Did you paint the heart or what ?"

abe: " No la.. the teacher paint the heart... and the box... and paste the paper..."

me: " so what did you contribute then?"

cla: " My hand lo!!! The teacher trace my hand then cut the hand out lo..."

LoL... indeed very important rite? kekeke without their helping, this "Little helping hand" note pad wouldnt be able to complete :)

HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY, ALL THE dearest mommies :)

Good time, bad time

Last weekend, Clarabelle caught me surprised with her "clock reading" worksheet.

She actually had all correctly linked!

To ensure she was not guessing, I got her to do another worksheet. Confidantly and correctly, she completed it without much thinking.

I was so impressed and exaggerative excited, yelling for the daddy while giving her praises and kisses.

Quietly, I observed another girl. She was feeling envious. Trying to do something creditable too.

Slowly she drew out a box of puzzle. One by one, she fixed it in the correct sequence order. She knew I was observing her. And I knew what she wants. Though that puzzle was no longer a challenge for her. She was very familiar with it. The moment I saw her completed one strip, I was very eager to praise her.

But Abella was ambitious. She wanted to complete all the strips. True enough, when she had compeleted all, proudly she brought it to me and of course, I bestow her.

Then Clarabelle came and wanted to do the puzzle. But Abella thought that was her glory and forbidded her.

A round of squabble started.

Ended with a pool of messed up puzzle , two anguished girls and three wordless ladies...

Motherhood. Good time. Bad time.

Letting go...

Below is a beautiful message I had read about holding on to a relationship…

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge. The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter, 'Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don 't fall into the river.'

The little girl said, 'No, Dad. You hold my hand.'

'What's the difference?' asked the puzzled father.

'There's a big difference,' replied the little girl.

'If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.'

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours...
This message is too short......but carries a lot of Feelings.

An inspirating message that reminded me to hold on to my girls hand than asking them to hold mine. However I also believe, to benefit a child or even a relationship, sometimes one must learn to let go too.

As for my girls, I felt that they have reach the appropriate stage. A suitable age to take charge of themself, learning independance. As being able to depend on yourself seem to give better control of the situation you desire.

Money . Honey

Have I ever mention how dear are my girls, saying that they will earn alots of money and give me alots of money next time when they grow up?

kekeke...Anyway, let me brag again.

There was once, Abella ask me to buy something. I had spent all my cash then though I also dont wish to cultivate them the habits of getting what they want easily, even their request are very small money.

So I simply told them that I had no money and reply them why, as I had bought this, this, this and that, that, that, so used up all my money.

But I never expect they will sympathize me and told me... " Mommy next time, Clarabelle & Abella grown up, will earn alots of money, then Clara & Abe give mommy alots of money, then mommy has alots of money, k?"

Such a dear right? but that has it side effect...

There was once, I told them that Im buying them something as an encouragement for being good. Then Abella say : " But mommy you have no money lei..."
me : " Er.. bcos daddy has give mommy money already." (was saying that infront of their daddy... hiak hiak hiak)

There was once again...
Clara: " Mommy why did you buy so many things? you got money already? Bcos daddy give you money already?"
me : " Yes..." (No harm letting them hv the impression their daddy is the main breadwinner... and associate mommy is poor... -_-")

But my indulgence didnt prolong...
One day Abe ask :" Mommy why u didnt earn alots of money? Can you earn alots of money? "

... ... ... -_-

the evil side of money , corrupt human of all ages

but still, I ask them :" If mommy will to earn alots of money, then mommy will has lesser time to accompany you already. Dont you want mommy accompany or want mommy to earn alots of money? "

Abe n clara: " I want mommy to earn alots of money and buy things for me... but I still want mommy accompany..."

Afterall children are still innocent. Cultivating proper values to children are very important. The words we said to them too... but the daddy mentality abit sway...

I remember an incident, the girls were asking for his accompany.
Clara : " Daddy, I want your accompany..."
Dad : " Daddy needs to work, If daddy accompany you everytime and dont work, then we have no money, and you cant have toys, food, clothes, take plane... "

Albeit I always remind him, how we treat them now, will reflect how they'll treat us when we are old.

A different roof

Of late, Clarabelle has develope an interest in house visiting.

She will either say she has not been to somone house and wants to go someone house or say want to invite someone to our house.

Of course, this somone is one she's fond of, but can be one she just aquainted too and she had chemistry with.

Then she has been bugging my fren, Bernice's mommy, everytime we meet up. Speaking of it, I realised we actually have not been to their house.

So my kind hearted fren invited them and even suggested a "1 day 1 night" stay at her house.

I felt is interrupting, albeit the proposal sound interesting. And it was Bernice's mommy and the 3 little girls bugging, I dont wish to spoil spot but acepted the invitation.

So last Saturday night, I simply packed their "luggage" to send them off.
Probably I was too mindful with my domestical routine to accomplish.
Probably I was thinking this not gona to be real, the girls will back off immediately.

I didnt cater time for emotional, the separation anxiety. Not until the moment, when the car was here to fetch them...

Instantly, the carefree Clarabelle hopped in and beckoned Abella excitedly . The affectionate Abella was already eyes red, hand adhesive to mine, asking me to go along too. I was perspiring panick then but relief in heart too. Still we gave Abella the assurance to go ahead, it'll be fine, mommy will pick her next morning for breakfast, there will be many fun waiting ahead.

Abella is always a "sense" abiding child. After our words, she hugged and kissed me gdnite followed by to her daddy then lifted herself and hop on.

3 little girls waved inside happily as the car moved and disappeared..

I have no time for emotional... It was too late by the time I regreted. I missed them instantly. Not that it was the first time they sleep out, they ever stay-over at their mama's hse. But this time I really felt the amiss.

I was hoping for call... to pick them up, as they were weeping, insist to come home...
but none...

I dosed off and thought will be waken up by early morning call, urging us to bring them home...
but none other than a pic sms, taken 3 beauties sleeping and text, "will return ur girls in the evening..."

Arrh... I cant take it further... I return txt insisting to brin back my girls at noon!

What I had worried for my girls, sound more for myself, the older girl huh?!

Threesome

I had a threesome date last Friday...

See my two lovely date... kekeke







and the awesome three... kekeke

We didnt went for a river view scrumptious dinner as plan but ended up with submarine burgers.
However that doesnt dampen our mood as the main dish is-
Take the river cruise!




And our destination is -
See our Merlion puke ROAR ! ! !


: )

Something comfort...

One of time I enjoy most with my girls is the time prior to their sleep. Our girls time where we will cuddle and rolled like a ball together. Tickle each other or do the Eskimo nose rub. We love doing our own-create "head rub" too. Similar to the eskimo gesture, but instead of nose, we will hold each other forehead intact, then shake our head vigorously.

giggle... giggle... giggle...

till our eyes meet... we smile and they tell me...
"mommy, I love you... "
Mommy love you both too... :)

wtpg: "I love mommy, I love daddy, I love mama, I love gong gong, I live jiu jiu, I love... ... but cannot love jiejie right, mommy? cos they are not our relative right, mommy?"

Kekeke... 鲁子可教也!

I just taught them 2 new words - relatives & slibings :p

Of course my dear, you can like mommy's frens or your frens or daddy's fren but dont anyhow like people, especially those non-related and may be bad guys!

My Undivide Love

The hubby brings my girls to his office quite often due to the convenience that the girls' school is just below his office.

And this pair of wtpg always generate high magnetic pull, especially strong to those sluttish office ladies, will crowd and squeamish around them... dono who is the real attraction actually *eyes rolling*

And they sure shower my girls with lot of candies, biscuits, toys and gifts...
(收买人心）

Then one time, when we reached the carpark, I alighted the car first as I was late, need to rush first to work, while the hubby will mingle with the girls to their school. Then from far, the squeamish crowd spotted our car, all dashed toward our direction, passed by me, who actually had raised my hand wanted to wave hi... but I seem to be invisible to all them huh???

I looked back, the hubby and my girls were already receiving many affectionate morning greeting...
msg the hubby :" My girls are machiam superstars... go anywhere also have crazy fanzs..."
*eyes rolling*

Last night, I was having conversation with Abella...
me: "Abella, you love to go daddy office huh?"
Abe happily :"Yes..."
me: "so what did you do in daddy office"
Abe:"hm... play with jie jie...many jie jie..."
me:"hm... so u love jie jie..."
Abe shyly:" Yes.."

*Bing biang*
My heart was broken but trying to keep my magnanimous :"But I tot u love mommy?"
Abe:"yes... I love mommy..."
I cant uphold my generosity further :"but can you just love mommy only?"
Abe :"But I love mommy, I love daddy & I love jie jie..."
me gone bonkers :" Can you just love mommy???"

Clarabelle overheard :" Mommy, why cant love jie jie huh?"

Woah-arh-arh-arh!!!
Was it my jealousy set in, narrowing my heart... afterall it's just child talks... and their concept of love is still very simple...

Arh-arh-arh-arh!!! : [...

A new phase

OMG! For a month plus only and my blogging skill has actually turn rust?! Haha! It took me awhile to think of a title to blog. I mean since I have been hibernating, I do have alots to update, esp my girls :)

Hopefully I can diligently update all, though now I have lesser time to... anyway, here are the appetizer :)


-I got my pay increment! Gee
-The girls are diaper free. Day & Night! Gee
-The girls' school progress report are excellent! Gee
-My girls love me alot. Gee (will elaborate more nxt time ;p)

and we are going on holiday very soon! Yeah!

被爱是辛福的

I want to declare, now my girls are at their defying age!!!

They love to say...
No!
I dont want!
I dont like it!
Is not OK!

and YES! They make me loss my compose in public... *long-sigh*

but when they told me...

"Mommy, I miss you so much" (when I pick them at school)
"Mommy, I love you so much, you know" (out of no reason)
"Happy working mommy" (when I alight the car)

One day, I was complaining no energy, need more energy...
they say "Mommy, I give you energy"

Then other day complaint "nobody" helps...
they say "Mommy, I want to help you"

and

never stingy to offer me when they have something nice to eat...
never lazy to fullfill me when I request them to massage me...
look out for me, wait for me when realise my absence...

Who say I am not being love?? I should be contented... in fact, full contentment!
They are my double happiness :)

Unconditional love

Does my twin fight?

YES!
Not only that, they will screamed & yelled at each other too
-_-

So everynight before they sleep, I'll make them say "good night... sweet dream... & I love you" to each other to round up any woes of the day.

On and off, they will also ask each other "Do you love me huh?", and this morning in the car...

Abe & Clar to each other : "Do u love me huh? Yes! OK!"

then Abe to me : "Mommy, do u love me huh?"
me : "Yes! Of course, my dear."
Abe to further reassured : "Mommy, u love me alot huh?"
me : "Yes...alot alot... very much!"

then the "copy cat" Clara to me : "Mommy, do u like me huh?"
me : "NO! I dont LIKE YOU!" (haha, teasing her)
Clara startle
then I told her : "Mommy dont like you but mommy LOVE YOU! You know, alot alot u know!"
Clara still looks startle but reply : " Ok..."

Two little silly rascal... how wont mommy love you huh? :p

A Letter for all my blog friends...

Dear fellow blogger friends,

What had happened lately was, I had set my 2nd quarter resolution. Now my new focus will be
1st...
still my children progress, developement, well-being etc...
2nd...
My career work, too shy to say it's a career, just making a living :p
3rd...
My well-being... picking up some games again... hopefully can cure my persistance back-ache & stiff neck and save an amt on chiropractic!
4th...
More time for my distance love ones... my two nephews & sister-in-law... quality time for my mommy & daddy too :)

Basically most of my focus still the same except that now I try to enforce it. However the 2nd focus had a great impact on my blogging time... as I hv pick up new challenge in work that I hardly have time to blog. It's good news for the my boss! HaHa! but I do miss my blog friends very much...

So my new wishlist...
A laptop! Apple Mac? What u think? Chio right SS?? haha hopefully this year end bonus " gao gao" (very rich) then Im able to get my personal laptop... (my current table top... cannot make it lah) and to save some for year end China trip and next mid-year Aussie trip...

Woof... pray hard, boss see my performance and I must really work hard also... phoof!

My First Mother's Day Card (Belated)

Yesterday on the way to school, Clarabelle posted me a question.

" Mummy, why you didnt accompany me to school? "

I quickly strike the metal while it's still hot.

" Yes... mommy will like to fetch you & Abella to school but every morning Clarabelle & Abella dont cooperate with daddy & mommy, so we are late for work and daddy has to drop mommy at the bus-stop instead and fetch you both to school himself."

" But, if both of u cooperate with daddy & mommy then we can leave the house on time and daddy & mommy not late for work then mommy can accompany Clara & Abella to school..."

The girls took awhile to digest my words but seem enlighten and replied : " Ok!"

Hee... actually we are partial to blame cos some time we over-slept too :p

Feeling guilty, I decided to pick up the girls from school that evening. Normally their father will picked them up first as his work place is near to their school, after that then fetch me from work.

Then when I was at their school, I was so delighted to find this belated MOTHER'S DAY CARD in their buggy hole!

Hee... This is their first gift for me... thought most of it must be done by the teacher, probably only the hand prints are theirs... but this is precious : )

Today, I woke up extremely early, thought the girls were still procrastinating initially but we manage to leave the house in time... : )

On the way to school, I had made deal with the girls that no crying and pestering when mommy has to leave for work after seeing them to school. Althought after so long, I suppose they are ok and everytime when I alight at the bus stop, they are so well behave... still I just want to reassure : )

And after making so many promises, the moment they stepped into their school...

immediately the 2 girls...

Wah!!! mommy accompany me... mommy carry me... I want mommy... -_-

The daddy gave me his white eye and said... " you must walk them to the playground... and must take the long route..."

I followed as per his instruction.

Then when in the playground... they were still pestering me to carry them...

white eyes from the man again...

"Dont! Just give them a good-bye hug then go!" then kept nagging at me, move! move! ignore them! move on!

*Irritating fellow*

On the way to my bus... the hubby called... " guess what? I went back to see them & they are playing like nobody!"

I knew that... dont need you to tell me -_-

Today I'm late for work again... caught in a sudden rain too ""_""

We are 3 Y O !

The girls had turned 3 last week... finally I felt some relieve... why?

Firstly, I am so happy that their birthday party turned out very well! All the guests had an enjoyable afternoon, especially the kids :)

I always dream to have a "real" party for the girls. What I meant "real" is, a very kiddy party, really children oriented with small dining tables & chairs and kiddy cutlery set-up. The plus, theme decoration party streamers, balloons, novelties and goodies bag.

The children sat together wearing party hat and bestow lavishly on a spread of sweet treats like chocolates, candies, cookies, cupcakes, ice-cream etc. A little people social interaction ground to socialize and making new friends but one rule...

NO ADULTS INTERFERING ALLOWS!!! HA HA HA!

Well adults... give all a break! Have your mind off your children just this moment and enjoy a carefree meal. Hack if the kids ate too much candies or many helping of juices, unwilling to be nice and not sharing toys... make this 2 hours time for them to mingle and they'll sure to find their way to settle their kiddy matters... ;p

The only hip-cups was the birthday girls were unable to complete the birthday walk as planned... I learnt about this birthday walk from CM blog and I find the ritual very educational & meaningful. And I hope all the children can take this opportunity to know, the months in a year, the earth (I was surprised my girls knew the globe is the earth) revolve around the sun 365 days make a year etc and most important, the purpose of birthday... not just the luxury...

Now come to think about it now, I feel disturb again. While I were having interaction with the kids, asking them related question like how many months in a years etc then some adults were impatient making remark :"Aiyoh... you talk so lo-soh... they not interested lar... they cannot wait already lar... : (

So I forgo the part, walking around the months 3 times but proceeded to sing the birthday song.

Anyway... Oh yes! What I felt most relieve is, we finally took up the insurance policy for the girls... and opened bank account for the two of them :) Money Saving make me feel secure... :p

We are two years old and coming to three...

The girls 3rd birthday are coming...

Times fly like rocket...

They are turning 3 soon, sensible three...

Eversince they start school, they have been coming home with numerous birthday goodies bag from their classmates... doing a quick count, since January till today, 9th goodies bag! This month especially many classmate birthday.

Initially I was hesistating whether to organise one for them at school since Im already organising one with their cousins, furthermore their birthday fall on a sunday... quite pointless to do it advance and have two cake cutting... but another thought, Im afraid may short change them. They are quite sensible now. Especially Abella, her cognition had advance alot lately...

This year, they seem to have a better grasp about birthday. When asked how old are they, they will replied with their two petite fingers pointing :" I am two years old, coming to three... " trying to draw out the ring finger. They are also very excited about their bday, the two always chat about, mommy will buy them a orange&yellow aeroplane cake then start singing the bday song, cut the cake. Mommy will buy them present too, is their birthday, not their classmate birthday... blar blar blar -_-

So now I hv addition work. Beside arranging one on the actual day, I need to arrange another cake and the goodies bag for their classmates too.

Busy... busy... busy...

Work... housework... children...

Being so busy, still I see there are more constructive thing yet to be done, especially with the children.

The children are growing... but mommy is not growing with them... which daunt me alot...

My writing seem cannot collate... because my mind had occupied with many things... and very disorganise...

Hearts die, we die

Today is the 5th day of school for the girls... the girls are still crying in the morning. Now is Clarabelle turns, very stickey to me, wants my accompany wherever she goes, whatever she does. And volunteer to accompany me wherever I go, whatever I do... Yes, even to the loo. And when I stop her from tailgating, she insisted : " Clarabelle accompany you ok." sound like I should be appreciating... -_-

Read today "Today", another case of sudden death... cardio respiratory failure... 3 years ago, my elder brother left us suddenly... cardio respiratory failure too... my family has heart disease records... sometime ago I felt some chest pain... went for the treadmill... everythings was fine... got some reassurance, most probably lack of exercise...

This morning on the bus, I felt the suffoacating in the chest... I thought I almost collapse... quickly take some deep breathe in and out... the first thoughts I have is my girls will continue mouring for being not able to wake me up no matter how hard they cry and yell at me, push me gota to be strong again.

There was a time I was too lazy worn out to entertain the girls so decided to close my eyes and rest. My sudden stillness frighten the girls. Initially they tried to wake me up but I refuse to budge. Their continue calling and shaking my body still no respond, frightened them. They started to cry and shake me more vigorously and they puked! I felt so guilty to had dauted them. At the same time, it's reminded me of the scene, 3 years back, at the emergency when I shaked & yelled at my elder brother, insisted him to wake up... but he didnt...